shellie

can_you_digit @ 2007-05-11T20:36:00

2007-05-12T00:37:01Z

can_you_digit @ 2007-05-05T16:23:00

2007-05-05T20:33:57Z

It happened this morning at 5am. I found out while at work when my brother texted me and I just broke down. Like, I was suppose to visit my grandpa next weekend because voc wouldn't allow it this weekend because of a big test I had to take. But Katy made me really happy and just took over all my customers while I basically sat there a big fat mess. One of my little Mexican ladies got really upset that I was crying and was the cutest thing I've ever seen and it made me so happy and I don't even know why. But I guess he'll be better off, bone cancer is pretty freaking rough, walking is a fun thing and stuff. And he died in his sleep so he wasn't in pain. But freaking, he was such a great guy, I'm going to miss him and his complaining about our government and complaining about war video games and his crazy sarcasm and just how much he liked everyone no matter what.

And oh, I just got into Brookdale.

cause she's bittersweet she knocks me off my feet.

2007-05-02T20:06:14Z

Death is kind of the suckiest thing in the world and I know I'm going to get that phone call soon and I really don't want that to happen and I just really want The Stating Line's secret myspace show to make me feel really good even though everything is really not good. And I really liked sitting at the inlet last night watching lightning strike everything around us and it turning the radio off every few minutes and hailing on Sebastian to the point of it sounding like it's going to break and I really like the person I was with. I get to wear my prom dress twice because of that person even though you're not suppose to wear your prom dress twice ever. I'm really excited for prom/balls which is rare for me cause I don't like getting dressed up at all. I really like this dress though, it's red and halter and the most expensive thing I've ever owned in my life. [$200?] And it makes me feel really famous cause while I was trying it on the girl who worked at the store ran around finding things that would match it and I really don't mind feeling famous. I'm going to Tilly's prom, and she's going to mine because we don't need real dates. And we're trading dresses for mine so I get to wear hers and that's really neat because I can't trade clothes with anyone. My mom is still really depressed and I don't like that at all, but we're not moving and I'm not upset about that because it makes my mom really happy. We'll move soon anyway, and I know it will happen, and she knows it will happen, and Tom knows it will happen, even my grandparents know it will happen. I really just want to move into my grandparent's house so I don't have to live with the killer dog and I can just chill and cuddle with my Ewok dog again like middle school.

I might be moving?

2007-05-01T19:33:00Z

So here's a friggen story for you.

My mom has this boyfriend that we live with. He's kind of crazy and I kind of dislike him, this is all besides the point.

She hadn't seen his sister's kids in a while, they're 3 and 6, and well she saw them on Saturday and the three year old looks at her and says, "Oh, Uncle Richie said you were dead." Uncle Richie meaning, my mom's boyfriend. Okay, that's really dumb but like, just messed up, you don't just tell your relatives your girlfriend died, it's just pretttty much no dice. He says he never said it but like, 3 year olds don't know how to make things up.

So, today I come home and our dining room area is filled with boxes of her things.
We may be moving, probably my mom and I to my grandma's, which I don't have a problem with AT ALL. and my brother to our dad's. Which is weird because like, we're being separated? Whatever, the point is, I'm really happy to be getting away from this man that hasn't talked to me since 2006 because I had people over on New Years. But it really bothers me to see my mom so upset.

In conclusion: I'm buying my mom really expensive tickets to see Morrissey. :]

the best.

2007-04-20T04:10:47Z

Today at around 6:30 in the afternoon, my mom calls me to tell me she and her boyfriend couldn't attend that beautiful Bob Saget's performance tonight, and she needed someone to use her $50 tickets. I, had never heard Bob Saget's comedy and really just wanted to sleep and do my history project.

Jen really wanted to go.
So we did.

AND THAT WAS THE BEST DECISION I EVER MADE.

One of the first things he said on stage was about screwing Kimmy Gibler. YES PUTTING HIS WEINER INSIDE OF HER. Jen and I cried laughing the whole time. He started playing guitar and singing and oh my gosh he was so friggen vulgar. He said he found his daughter's thong in the wash once and it looked like an eyepatch/slingshot and I don't think I can ever get over this guy. He's my new favorite person ever and he'll be back at PNC Art Center August 25, two days after my birthday<3333

Not going to school tomorrow because I didn't do that history project.
And do you know what that means?

I get to get drug tested because 420 obvi blazeeee!!

Hi my name is Shellie

2007-04-19T01:06:39Z

And I am now a licensed driver. I love it a lot. It's really weird because I always thought like I would always be "Shellie, the girl with a car and no license who drives anyway." It just felt like that was my life.

A month from now I'm going to be extremely upset. I don't really want to talk about it yet but I don't want it to happen and I'm really scared.

And a month from now I'm going to be standing two feet away from one of my favorite people on the planet. Then staying over night all classy and crap in Atlantic City.

I don't know which is more on my mind.

meghan o'donnell forever.

what

2007-04-04T20:26:54Z

would you do if I had short shorts that said LMAO across the butt?

wow.

2007-04-04T01:48:15Z

I seriously cannot wait till my mom is over her freaking midlife crisis.

She is so different.

Everything is different.

I want to move.

She parties all the time. She doesn't come home some nights and it's just like weird it's not suppose to be like that.
I'm not suppose to be unable to hand in scholarship forms because my mom just ... didn't come home because she's out at a club all night.

LOLZZZ hope she likes paying full price for college because this is late<33

okay so maybe,

2007-04-02T02:17:20Z

Just maybe I always forget my password for everything I try to replace livejournal with.

This weekend was kind of nice.
Friday was not as good as we hoped it'd be, but the city was nice with Phil and Chris. I got Phil and I real lost on the way to the train station. Whatever I don't think he really wants to even talk to me anyone for whatever reason that could be. So I'm not going to try. He seems too bothered with me when I do anyway.

Saturday and Sunday I spent in Connecticut with my family. My grandpa is really sick and it's not going to get better. He has ... well now two months. We're going to be visiting him a lot, and that's really important to do. It's bone cancer. It's terrible to see him like that. But he's making the best of it, he jokes about it. He's always been that way. He told me a bunch of times that he wants to "hear good things about me from the other side" and that made me really sad. This weekend he gave my brother, dad, and I a bunch of things. And well... the things that I have could equal up to over ... $6,000.

I'm going to Florida on Thursday, and I am so excited.

I have six new cameras.
And at least 11 new lenses.
And a bunch of filters.
and so many cute little add-ons.
Here are some that there just *happened* to be on google.

I have three of that camera body, why? Because my grandpa likes them. Minolta SRT 101.

Argus Coated Cintar 50mm. It's from the 1950's - 1060's.

This is a Rolleiflex. I believe the one I have is from the 1930s, but I'm not too sure on that... these are being sold on ebay for $3,000. yeppp.

This is a Novar-Anastigmat. It was used sometime from the 1930's to the 1950's. Hmmmmm.

can_you_digit @ 2007-03-27T01:00:00

2007-03-27T05:01:38Z

Yanno, I don't use this.

But I'm still really nosey and going to read what you say about your life.

If you're a nosey hoe too, read my new crap.
http://friggenshellie.blogspot.com/

can_you_digit @ 2007-01-07T04:27:00

2007-01-07T09:27:24Z

Livejournal,
we're through.
Goodbye.

can_you_digit @ 2007-01-01T22:44:00

2007-01-02T03:46:28Z

New Years Resolution:
SMOKE WEED, EVERYDAY.

Obviously not.
This year I'm not going to let anyone walk allover me.

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-31T05:14:00

2006-12-31T10:14:35Z

Everyone has been really sad lately, for whatever.

A new year.
I want change.

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-22T02:17:00

2006-12-22T07:43:53Z

I'm just, so excited for winter break. Sleeping in everyday, going to the city on random days, leaving 2006 behind to start a fresh new year.

You know, 2006 was definitely the best year of my life so far.
They better just, get better after this.
Every year my New Years resolution is the same.

"Just have a really good time."

I'm making a list and taping it to my wall of all these things I want to do in 2007.
I don't even know what to put on this list yet exactly.

I hate how around Christmas time, everyone is just out to please everyone else. It's almost sickening how fake everyone is to each other. I hate Christmas. It makes me think about things I really shouldn't care about at all. And it makes me wish that everything wasn't so fake. Like going to my "dad's" side of the family for Christmas?
It's always the same people, and the same level of uncomfortableness and the same talks about hunting that morning, and the talks about midnight mass, and just things that like, I've never even had even thought about wanting to experience.

December 27: Thursday @ Starland \m/
December 28: Apparentlyyy free Thursday show to anyone who goes to the 27th one- it's somewhere random and they won't tell you til the 27th!?!?

...

2006-12-17T05:42:09Z

Double standards are going to be the fucking death of me.

No more of this kind of crap.

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-13T02:31:00

2006-12-13T07:31:43Z

I love New York City.

The School of Visual Arts is really, really nice.

FIT is really overrated.

You should go to NYC just to use the Charmin bathrooms, they're open til the end of December and... it's like going on a ride. Everyone dances around for a freaking bathroom and is taking pictures with giant bears and whoa, soooo cool.

AVENUE Q IS SO FREAKING GOOD. Like, I knew it was going to be amazing, but wow, it was even better than I expected. $55 of well worth it racist musicals and puppets.

Lauryn and I told this kid that I'm so good at guitar hero that I can actually pass things on expert.

Lauryn and I had a hard time passing medium.

We're having a guitar hero battle with that kid, and before it I must be able to play expert. HMMM.

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-11T02:16:00

2006-12-11T07:16:23Z

Things I hate about this weekend:
1. People who just show up.
2. People who have sex with someone without knowing their name.
3. Free smoothies not being so good.
4. Taco Bell being closed.
5. Every band that opened for Racing Kites.
6. Spending $40 in two days.

Things I love:
1. Fins.
2. Chzek Republic.
3. DDR.
4. Guitar Hero.
5. Racing Kites.
6. Baking cakes.
7. Boys with glasses who sing terribly but cover NWA so that's fine.
8. Fergalious.

We actually got a Christmas tree this year. Every year I begin to think we won't get one because... my mom works Christmas, and we always get our gifts early, example: the computer I'm on right now. My mom and I decorated the tree like crazy and it looks really nice. We have obnoxious ornaments and I love it. I slept til three in the afternoon today and my sleeping schedule is so messed up. I probably won't even sleep tonight. Whateverrr.

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-05T03:08:00

2006-12-05T08:08:10Z

I don't want to go to Brookdale or OCC anymore.

I was just going to do that because it's easiest.

But I want to leave.

And experience something more than Point Pleasant and Brick.

I'm tired of everything. Or I'm just bored. They're both the same. About seventeen years of the same thing almost everyday?

And photoshop is the most difficult thing to understand.
I need to make a collage of myself or a famous person, using different pieces of things for eyes, a nose, a mouth, hair, etc.
I need to make a mythical creature using things that aren't that "creature".
I need to AIRBRUSH something with eyes as the main focus.
And then the hard one: I need to airbrush a reflection of something.
>:[

can_you_digit @ 2006-12-04T15:34:00

2006-12-04T20:34:17Z

I missed Amanda Epley.

Cold weather sucks.

Hospital visit FTW.

2006-11-28T04:13:42Z

Soooo, I basically haven't done anything for like a week. I forced myself to school last Wednesday for student teacher switch day, but Monday and Tuesday I felt too sick. Thanksgiving I tried to eat like a beast like I'm suppose to [but I wasn't hungry, this is something that is RARE with me, I'm in love with food] and I really just couldn't eat much, and didn't even eat pie. And then all weekend I was kind of tired and sleeping a bunch. And I slept all day today, and then my mom decides that we should go to the hospital because lassst Monday we went to the doctor and all she did was say I should stop eating chinese food, chocolate, and pizza. Which is something that will never, ever happen, Chinese food is too beautiful to give up.

Anyways, I went to the hospital! Hospitals make me cringe, they're the most disgusting thing in the world and I don't know, I just cannot handle anything about them. They wanted me to wait in the waiting room with an IV in my arm, butttt since blood and needles has made me pass out before, that's not allowed, thank heavenssss.

Then I go into the hospital and they do everything and the lady started joking around about taking blood. She was like "LOL THIS IS MY FIRST TIME DOING THIS" and she stabbed me and I just started crying because that's really scary! And I sat with that shit in my arm for an hourrr. And they come back and say, "You don't have mono, we're testing you for epstein-bar and 'viral infections'." Blahblahblah whatever, I get on "the pill" tomorrow, so mad sexing allover the place from now on.

can_you_digit @ 2006-11-26T17:41:00

2006-11-26T22:41:57Z

I really want to be hardcore for Black Friday next year.
I've always wanted to do that.

Never get mono.
It sucks.

can_you_digit @ 2006-11-10T17:26:00

2006-11-10T22:26:55Z

So yesterday Blair and I were driving around town, and we pulled up next to Duffys and the gross pet store at the red light on route 35 and Arnold Ave., right across from the train station. And we're just sitting in the car talking and listening to Brand New like little teenyboppers. And all of the sudden this large black woman with ripped up clothes walks up to my window and starts yelling at me giving me the finger saying, "You're just jealous because I had a baby at 13 and that I have a vagina and my eggs work!!! You're jealous of this [she grabs her fat here] you stupid little white bitches!!!!" And then the light turned green and we had to drive away.

can_you_digit @ 2006-10-30T23:53:00

2006-10-31T00:10:57Z

So, I'm really into this Chinese restraunt, Timing Kitchen.

Basically, I go there often enough to be "acquaintances"

At least twice a week, and everyday this summer.

And so, they have a daughter who is seven who just hangs out around there.

She'll be hanging out around there on Halloween.

She's being Barbie for Halloween.

She's the cutest thing in the world.

I hope they let me take her trick-or-treating a little bit. =[

can_you_digit @ 2006-10-27T00:26:00

2006-10-27T05:27:12Z

• * List 11 things you want to say to 11 different people.

• * Don't say who they pertain to.

• * Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.

• * Never discuss it again

1. It's really funny that I met you off the internet.

2. You fascinate me and make me extremely happy, but why aren't we "official", even though I'm not even sure that matters.

3. Sometimes I wish you'd slap your dad across the face and make him realize you shouldn't have a curfew of the sun setting.

4. I'm really glad I eat lunch with you everyday. You're the weirdest girl ever and I LOVE IT.

5. I miss you and you totally ignore it, I hope we get close again. I'm going to try and help you through all these little things. And I hope you like me enough to let me stay at your house again.

6. YOU TWO ARE THE MOST FUN GIRLS EVER. One of you: You have no shame at all, and it makes me wish I was going to Rutgers parties all the time. The other one: We have so much in common and I don't know you well at all, but I'm really happy that [the other person mentioned] introduced us, and we should really hang out even though she's a silly college student now!

7. You're the older brother I never had. I wish we'd go on adventures again. Like the fourth of July!

8. You're the cutest kid in the world and I'm glad you're my neighbor and it's cool when you visit me at random and wake me up.

9. Your catch phrases make me happy. And even though I've never even met you, I miss talking to you so much more than you think. And that's really ridiculous!

10. You're a lot more amazing than you think, and you're the funniest person I've ever met. I wish you didn't live 45 minutes away, because I'd love to do weird crap that only we'd do.

11. It's weird not really talking to you anymore. or you. or you. or you. or you. or you. or you. or you.

Why was it so hard to pick just 11? Why do I have so many things to say to people that I just haven't?

can_you_digit @ 2006-10-10T05:01:00

2006-10-10T05:19:08Z

I would just like to share with you, the most obnoxious conversation I've ever had.

First, I'd like to say that the guy named "Ian" mentioned is just a "bisexual" kid, who says that he does not want to meet homophobes on his myspace.
I made the obnoxious stuff really big, because it amused me so much.

SpeedMetalTA: hey
shellie is phat: heyyyy
SpeedMetalTA: whatsup
shellie is phat: nothing at all, you?
SpeedMetalTA: nm
SpeedMetalTA: i left ian a nice comment on his myspace today
SpeedMetalTA: u should defintly go look at it
shellie is phat: heyhey
SpeedMetalTA: what
shellie is phat: disliking people who are gay is very close minded.
SpeedMetalTA: ian calling them homphobes is close minded
SpeedMetalTA : its not that i dont know about gay people or havent been around them
SpeedMetalTA : so its not really closed minded
shellie is phat: where does he say he hates "your kind"
SpeedMetalTA: in his who i would like to meet thing it says no homophobes
SpeedMetalTA : i think of it as i can be offended by it b/c he would be offended if i put no gays in my whom i would liek to meet section
SpeedMetalTA: its the same thing really
shellie is phat: well why would you want to meet people who just hate people because they like people of the same gender?
SpeedMetalTA: idk but why woudl u discriminate
SpeedMetalTA: would*
shellie is phat: It's not discriminating anything.
SpeedMetalTA: hes discriminating against people who dont liek gays
SpeedMetalTA: and calling them names
shellie is phat: homophobes? that's what they are, nick.
SpeedMetalTA: it would be like saying i dont want to be friends with butt pirates
SpeedMetalTA: not really
SpeedMetalTA: in the comment i clearly state they dont fear gay people
SpeedMetalTA: i really just did this to fuck with ian
SpeedMetalTA: but it does annot me that gay people call everyone who doesnt like them homophobes
SpeedMetalTA: annoy*
SpeedMetalTA: its like just b/c dont like them they get pissed off and want to say that ur afraid of them b/c they need to get a way to come back at u
shellie is phat: What else do you call them if they don't like you because you're gay?
SpeedMetalTA: haters
shellie is phat: Disgusting?
SpeedMetalTA: player haters maybe
shellie is phat: no, i'm being serious.
shellie is phat: What would you call someone if they hated you because you're straight.
SpeedMetalTA: i'll eventually think of a word
SpeedMetalTA: but see they dont have to be afraid of the straight people
shellie is phat: Why not?
shellie is phat: Why can't a gay guy be afraid of a girl hitting on him.
SpeedMetalTA: just like people dont like me its not b/c they're afraid of me
SpeedMetalTA: well every case is different
SpeedMetalTA: anyone can really be afraid of anyhting
SpeedMetalTA: thing*
shellie is phat: I can't have this conversation anymore.
SpeedMetalTA: ok
SpeedMetalTA: i want u to know this is all pretty much a joke
shellie is phat: It doesn't change the fact that you hate homosexuals.
SpeedMetalTA: i dont hate them but some i dont particular like
SpeedMetalTA: like i dont actually hate ian
shellie is phat: What if Harry randomly was gay?
SpeedMetalTA: probably have to kill him
SpeedMetalTA: jk
SpeedMetalTA: idk
shellie is phat: Would you still talk to him?
SpeedMetalTA: yeah i guess
SpeedMetalTA: i talk to ian and hes kind of gay
shellie is phat: But you still make fun of Ian all the time for it.
shellie is phat: What if I was a lesbian?
SpeedMetalTA: i told her that i would have to kill u to see her reaction but then i thought she might think i'm just and asshole so i said i was joking
SpeedMetalTA: o wrong im
SpeedMetalTA: i told harry abotu u asking me what i would do if he was gay
shellie is phat: yeah i'm talking to him.
SpeedMetalTA: yeah i dont really hate gay people though
SpeedMetalTA: some just annoy me kind of
SpeedMetalTA: like the ones who act overly gay
shellie is phat: How many gay people do you know personally?
SpeedMetalTA: and r all over each other
SpeedMetalTA: not many
shellie is phat: Exactly.
SpeedMetalTA: but i have seen many
shellie is phat: And?
SpeedMetalTA : like i said i just dont like the overly gay ones
SpeedMetalTA : like the ones who talk all weird with the lisp and do the wrist motions
shellie is phat: You honestly think they can help having a "lisp"?
SpeedMetalTA: well most of them arent born talking like that
shellie is phat: How do you know?
SpeedMetalTA: like i knwo tom delmonico didnt talk liek that when he first came to our school
SpeedMetalTA: and now he does
SpeedMetalTA: john omailley
shellie is phat: So you think he constantly talks with his voice changed?
SpeedMetalTA: he was never like that
SpeedMetalTA: i think its just a change that happened
shellie is phat: And why does that make you dislike them?
SpeedMetalTA: kidn of liek if ur in the south and u start talking in a southern accent
SpeedMetalTA: its annoying
SpeedMetalTA: kind of like guidos talking
shellie is phat: Just shut the fuck up.
SpeedMetalTA: why r u getting so pissed over this
shellie is phat: WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT
shellie is phat: It's disgusting.
shellie is phat: Hating someone because of their voice is wrong in SO many ways.
SpeedMetalTA: well ur talking about it too i was done awhile ago when i said ok
shellie is phat: And then you kept talking about it.
SpeedMetalTA: when u said i cant talk about this i was done
shellie is phat: shellie is phat: I can't have this conversation anymore.
SpeedMetalTA: ok
SpeedMetalTA: i want u to know this is all pretty much a joke
shellie is phat: It doesn't change the fact that you hate homosexuals.
SpeedMetalTA: i dont hate them but some i dont particular like
SpeedMetalTA: like i dont actually hate ian
SpeedMetalTA: no u did u started asking me about what if harry was gay and everything
SpeedMetalTA: right after i told u it was a joke
shellie is phat: BECAUSE YOU KEPT TALKING
shellie is phat: and it's frustrating in so many ways.
shellie is phat: I have a couple friends that are gay, I have family members that are gay, and do you know how much more accepting they are than you?
SpeedMetalTA: no i dont
SpeedMetalTA: idk what else to say
shellie is phat: Good. bye.

Of course it doesn't end there!

He soon tells Harry "Tell her not to even bother apologizing! I'm not accepting it!" So obviously, I HAD TO "apologize" just to see what would happen next because I was having so much fun making him mad, yanno!?

SHELLIE is PHAT: Look Nick,
SHELLIE is PHAT: I'm reallyreally sorry.
SpeedMetalTA: well why did u even make a big deal about it everyone makes fun of ian for being bisexual
SHELLIE is PHAT: First of all, I was kidding by actually apologizing.
SHELLIE is PHAT: Because I have nothing to apologize about, by the way.
SHELLIE is PHAT: Second of all, you weren't making fun of bisexual people.
SpeedMetalTA: the whole thing started b/c we talked about today how it would be funny if someone did the reverse of homosexuals saying they dont liek homophobes
SHELLIE is PHAT: We didn't talk about that.
SpeedMetalTA: kind of like a what if homophobes were upset about being called homphobes
SHELLIE is PHAT: You mentioned it to me, knowing how I am with that sort of thing.
SpeedMetalTA: no i had no idea u or katie were like that at all
SpeedMetalTA: i wouldnt havce said anything about it at all if i knew
SpeedMetalTA: the only way i found out was harry told me in the middle of the convo that u and katie take it very seriosuly
SpeedMetalTA: seriously*
SHELLIE is PHAT: interesting.
SpeedMetalTA: and then katie ims me right after the convo and says dont ever talk to me again
SpeedMetalTA: what the hell is that
SHELLIE is PHAT: You compared homosexuals to guidos.
SHELLIE is PHAT: WHAT THE HELL IS THAT
SpeedMetalTA: you have to honestly know i am not really a homophobe
SpeedMetalTA: idk
SpeedMetalTA: but seriously i dont really bust on ian that much for being bisexual and if i do its not meant to actually offend him
SpeedMetalTA: and i dont actually go around preaching about how i dont like gay people
SHELLIE is PHAT: I don't care about what you do with Ian.
SpeedMetalTA: i dont go around physically hurting them or anything like that or saying things to them to offend them
SHELLIE is PHAT: Nope, but you just talk shit about them to people who find homophobia to be disgusting.
SpeedMetalTA: well i didnt know u thought that
SHELLIE is PHAT: So you thought I thought gay people were some gross being?
SpeedMetalTA: why would i purposely do all that before if i knew u felt so strongly about this
SHELLIE is PHAT: Why would you ever think that I hate homosexuals?
SpeedMetalTA: no i thought u were just neutral about it and didnt care much
SHELLIE is PHAT: What the fuck is wrong with you?
SpeedMetalTA: are u serious
SHELLIE is PHAT: Oh I'm dead serious.
SpeedMetalTA: w/e this is so stupid
SHELLIE is PHAT: No.
SpeedMetalTA: just dont talk to me if ur going to be like this
SHELLIE is PHAT: yeah, I have no reason to talk to someone so fucking ignorant anyway.
SpeedMetalTA signed off at 12:59:41 AM.

If you read all that, wonderful. I'm so annoyed with life right now because of this, and I hadddd to complain to something.